THE CONFESSIONS MEME

[ceasetoexist]

Cause we've all got our secrets.

HERE ARE THE RULES:
1. Post your character revealing a secret about themselves. It can be a big one. It can be a small one. It can be several. But it has to be a secret.
2. Other characters respond to your secret ICly, and you comment to theirs.
3. You ever noticed how I don't use pictures? It's because I'm a dummy who doesn't get it that much.
4. HAVE FUN!

Comments

[ceasetoexist]

He hated the world because what he saw and experienced of the world told him it hated him too, with the exception of one or two people. So when he had the power and ability to do something, he thought "why shouldn't I?"

It's a thought process I still have. Sometimes, I think I can justify it because I think I'm doing the right thing.

It scares the crap out of me.

[connie_maheswaran]

So on his justification, its ok to destroy other worlds? Sorry, I know its typical villain logic, but it still boggles my mind.

I think you should be careful with that kind of behavior. Even I'm not someone who can say I never decided to do something selfishly.

[relaxfriend]

[Wow Dave you're such a tool. He just has to...laugh a little.]

Of course I don't. Because I'm not a loser.

[POINTED LOOK AT DAVE.]

[ceasetoexist]

There's more to it than that. But that's pretty much what it boils down to. Guy was still a spoiled piece of garbage.

I'm trying. Trust me; I'm pretty well aware selfish is my middle name.

[connie_maheswaran]

I'm sure there is. I'm simplifying it, because there have to be some really big reasons to start ending other worlds.

I can tell you try though. Not everyone can say that.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Root BEER, Harley.

[ceasetoexist]

I kind of have to. I owe it to a whole lot of people who bothered to take a chance with me.

...That was something he, the real me, never got. Maybe it would have made a difference.

Then again. Maybe not.

[connie_maheswaran]

So you had experiences he didn't have, like trying to understand the people and the place you were sent.

Who can tell? The point is, you're here, and you're unique in your own way.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

....um....

Well.

I mean.

When the clown interfered with my kernalsprite, I broke down.

But like.

That wasn't as bad as when I arrived.

So like...kiiiiiinda telling.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Might be better I dun say....

[cuteandquarky]

Why? Withholding information will just make the scientific process more difficult!

[ceasetoexist]

And seeing people who cared about me. Came to love me.

...You've probably figured this out already but I lost a lot when I got pulled away from Mayfield. A lot lot. And I don't know if I'll see it again.

But I'm trying to be the person they'd want me to be, since it's the least I could do for the people who did so much for me.

Trying to be. Far as I know, there's still just one me.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Emotional reasons.

[cuteandquarky]

Well... I guess I can't force you to say anything, then. I guess this kind of stuff can be tricky.

[thevoidsdarkhorse]

Little bit. Is the risk worth the damage caused. That sorta thing.

[vulteran]

It's not just about me. I off him, I save the rest of his team and get revenge for all the Pokemon he's abused in the past or killed himself. Hell if I'm gonna let some cop asshole take that satisfaction from me.

[vulteran]

Probably. Wish this town was a bit larger, but at least I've got somewhere decent to live. Step up from the streets, that's for sure.

[And several from being in servic eto his trainer.]

[connie_maheswaran]

I could tell. I mean, I can see where there's that part of you that wants to take what you can get but doesn't. I can tell something happened to change that.

Is this place at least feeling like it could be a home for you?

[ceasetoexist]

Maybe. I show most of myself to others. Not all of it's that great.

...That's rough. But...crazy as this sounds...it happens. Places like this, you tend to end up hurting people you care about as bad as you did her. Just how these places go. And the chance is always there to make up for it.

That's a kind of pain a kid shouldn't have to live with though. I'm sorry.

[ceasetoexist]

...Naw. I don't think I'll have a place I can call home again. But I can have places I can be part of.

I can live with the people here. But it'll never be home.

[connie_maheswaran]

That's good, but I'm curious. What made Mayfield home, and this place not home? Just the people?

[hasmovedon]

[... he doesn't really get the question.]

Why does anyone feel such feelings? If I could tell you why, perhaps I'd have been able to stop myself.

[hasmovedon]

No. No, I didn't.

[He wasn't exactly sane at the time, but that's far too deep and painful a memory to want to share. He'll leave it at what he's already said; that's truthful enough]

Her death could have -- should have -- been avoidable.

[agent3]

[She shakes her head.]

Why tell?

[agent3]

Wish it was a city?

[Cities are pretty big. She knows.]