[...but at the same time he knows exactly why he feels this way, isn't he used to it, why does it hurt so much now?? There shouldn't be anything TO hurt, or to lose, but no, no there's a sense of pride and confidence that's both familiar and utterly alien in the background that's screaming at him in heartbreak...
A raking sob wrenches itself out if Ichimatsu's chest. Ichimats...? That's wrong, that's right, that's wrong, what happened!? Is it even himself moving right now?
He scrabbles at his chest, feeling the hard stone set there.
It's bigger now. No, no, no, no, no, he wants to rip himself in two! Does he?? They're eachother now!? Is that what happened!? What kind of cruel joke is this! No, should he blame himself, for thinking things like "it might be nice to be closer" earlier?? The confused panic is at least starting to clear with that realization, but their emotional state certainly isn't lessening any. How can he kind of like this but feel like his stomach is twisted into disgusting knots at the same time!?
Well, the gem is starting to glow a little again, so unless they completely settle down very quickly, the fusion may not hold for long.]
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A raking sob wrenches itself out if Ichimatsu's chest. Ichimats...? That's wrong, that's right, that's wrong, what happened!? Is it even himself moving right now?
He scrabbles at his chest, feeling the hard stone set there.
It's bigger now. No, no, no, no, no, he wants to rip himself in two! Does he?? They're eachother now!? Is that what happened!? What kind of cruel joke is this! No, should he blame himself, for thinking things like "it might be nice to be closer" earlier?? The confused panic is at least starting to clear with that realization, but their emotional state certainly isn't lessening any. How can he kind of like this but feel like his stomach is twisted into disgusting knots at the same time!?
Well, the gem is starting to glow a little again, so unless they completely settle down very quickly, the fusion may not hold for long.]