[Ichimatsu's confusion is Karamatsu's confusion, though it has yet to register as such. He doesn't realize until a split second too late that when his eyes darted over to look at his arm- arms- he hadn't...done that. It was like something else made his eyes move. Something else made his arms move, but at the same time it still felt like his own doing the movement.
He wanted to investigate the sudden wardrobe change a bit more, but it was like his mind had other priorities, and that surge of panic that crashed over him is almost overwhelming. His chest tightens right where the gem is, and...
The feelings he suddenly gets hit him like a brick. No...thoughts. Both? Seclusion. Self-hatred. Despondency. Panic, fear, hatred, panic, PANIC PANIC-
A raw, guttural scream rips out of a mouth that Karamatsu can't honestly claim as his own anymore as his other two arms hit the floor, but instead of keeping his body upright his elbows end up striking the stone, sending him falling halfway down while he tries to scramble backwards, as if he could run away from himself. So much desperation and jealousy and why does he feel this way-]
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[Ichimatsu's confusion is Karamatsu's confusion, though it has yet to register as such. He doesn't realize until a split second too late that when his eyes darted over to look at his arm- arms- he hadn't...done that. It was like something else made his eyes move. Something else made his arms move, but at the same time it still felt like his own doing the movement.
He wanted to investigate the sudden wardrobe change a bit more, but it was like his mind had other priorities, and that surge of panic that crashed over him is almost overwhelming. His chest tightens right where the gem is, and...
The feelings he suddenly gets hit him like a brick. No...thoughts. Both? Seclusion. Self-hatred. Despondency. Panic, fear, hatred, panic, PANIC PANIC-
A raw, guttural scream rips out of a mouth that Karamatsu can't honestly claim as his own anymore as his other two arms hit the floor, but instead of keeping his body upright his elbows end up striking the stone, sending him falling halfway down while he tries to scramble backwards, as if he could run away from himself. So much desperation and jealousy and why does he feel this way-]